My Christmas present to myself this year was a double-ended dildo. If I wasn’t on Santa’s naughty list before, I definitely am now!
Things were a bit too crazy during the holidays, so I waited until after New Year’s to try it out so that I’d be able to relax, take my time, and concentrate on exploring the new possibilities that this toy had to offer. Not surprisingly, it turns out that I love it!
My main motivation for adding this style of rubber dick to my little collection was not exactly what the main purpose of this toy normally is. What I wanted to do was simulate what it would be like to have a cock before I went so far as to invest in a strap-on (or maybe a strapless). My idea was to insert one end into my pussy, then jerk off the other end and see if I could get off just by stroking “my cock.” It took some trial and error, but I’m happy to report that I was very able to beat off and bring myself to orgasm!
I’ve always been envious of you guys and the way you masturbate. For us women, it’s a very limited action. We mostly diddle our clits or finger ourselves, which generally involves small actions. Worse is using a vibrator. It feels great, but there’s almost no action as we hold a buzzing object against our lady parts and wait for the feelings to come to us. One of the reasons I love watching men jerk off is that they have that big, fat cock to really grip onto and stroke. Sure, your fist is only moving a few inches up and down, but you can really get your whole arm and shoulder into the action. You can take it slow and easy, but you’re also able to get much more aggressive with your cock than I can with my pussy (unless I want to become an S&M devotee and cruelly abuse my sweet little kitty).
So, there I was in the middle of the day – hubby at work, kids at school – and I unwrapped my new toy. Naked on my bed, I lubed it up, slipped one end into my already wet hole and grabbed a hold of the half that was projecting from my pussy. It’s flexible enough that I can easily bend it up and around to an angle that closely mimics what it would look like if I had a cock. Just seeing myself like that was almost enough to get me off. I began stroking slowly and was instantly in heaven.
I quickly learned that it was going to be difficult to keep it inside me, so I had to use my free hand to press against where the dildo bent to keep it from popping out of my pussy after half a dozen strokes. I tried clamping down with my cunt muscles, but that only made it slip out sooner. I was a little bummed that I wasn’t able to use that free hand to play with my tits while I jerked off, but I soon discovered that I could reach my clit with the thumb of that hand, which was a fair trade off for the moment.
Once I got all the logistics worked out, I started to truly beat off for the first time. It was amazing! As I jacked my cock, the other end moved inside me. I tried a few different angles until I found the one that hit all the right spots. As I cranked my shaft, I naturally shifted and wiggled, which repeatedly caused me to lose that perfect alignment. This was annoying at first, but then I discovered that readjusting to find that spot again was only adding to the excitement. With some practice, I got into a steady rhythm and wanked my prick for a good ten minutes until I managed to make myself cum. It felt soooo fucking good!
There were two things that make this type of orgasm unique for me. First is the visual of watching my hand rapidly sliding up and down my very own cock. It’s hard to express just what a thrill that is. The other is the full on arm action I talked about. It feel so much more physical and visceral than just strumming my fingertips across my clit. Now that I’ve had a small glimpse into what the male masturbation experience is like, I’m even more envious than ever!
I’ve had several sessions over the past couple weeks with my bendy new friend. Twice now I’ve done it in front of a mirror so I could watch myself jerk off. Totally awesome. And this week I figured out that if I straddle the arm of our sofa, I can hold the inserted end of the dildo in my pussy by pressing down while I whack off. This allows me to go to town on my tits and nipples with my free hand! I guess that’s why they say necessity is the motherfucker of invention.
I haven’t told hubby about this gift to myself yet. I’m going to be selfish a little longer, but I will eventually share it with him – maybe it can be my Valentine’s surprise for him this year. I’m not sure if he’ll be into watching me jerk off, but I’m sure he’ll like if I bend it around the other way and DP myself with it (something I have tried once so far and will certainly be doing again). I’d love for him to give me a “blowjob,” but I don’t know how comfortable he’d be with that. I also have fantasies about him taking one end in his butt while I have the other in my asshole and we masturbate like that. Again, not sure if he’d be crazy about that idea. I’ll have to move slowly and do my best to get him liquored up before I attempt to seduce my man into doing any of the “gay” stuff.
If I do manage to lead him down that path, my next purchase may very well be that strap-on I’ve been eyeing…
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