I was organizing my cloud the other day and went through my images folder. Whenever I come across a picture while I’m tooling around on the web that grabs my attention, I snag it and throw it in my images folder with the intention of using it on my blog, matching it up with a story, or putting a caption on it. As I reviewed the pictures I’d collected, I found that I had a lot of close up shots of pussies similar to the one you see to the left. I hadn’t realized I’d accumulated so many!
Just to reiterate, I’ve never had a lesbian encounter – haven’t even come close. The nearest I’ve been was having sex in the back of a limo on prom night with my boyfriend while my best friend did the same with her date in the opposite corner. There was some eye contact between me and my friend while it was happening, but absolutely no chance of anything physical between us. Like most (maybe all?) women, I’ve always found myself attracted to other females. This attraction, however, was never consciously sexual.
I did have those few years as a teen of masturbating to my father’s hidden stash of porn magazines. There weren’t any men in those photo spreads, so I was getting myself off solely to images of naked women. Back then, it was more about seeing another person naked than it was about looking at women. It also had as much to do with envisioning my father stroking his cock while he looked at the same pictures I was. It somehow connected us across the time-space masturbation continuum.
It wasn’t until I started getting into online porn that my attraction to naked ladies moved toward the lust end of the spectrum. Originally I sought out porn that featured women fucking nice looking men (or manly men jerking off). At some point I found myself watching lesbian and solo female videos as well (especially homemade amateur stuff). I became intrigued by the sexuality of other women and began wondering what it would be like to experience that kind of sex. Women became a much more “active” part of my masturbation fantasies. During my pre-porn era, women in my fantasies were usually observers. Post-porn, they became participants.
So here I sit with a big pile of zoomed-in, quasi-disembodied pussy pics. Why are these the images that grab my attention? The easy part of the answer is that I find pussies to be irresistibly beautiful in their variety and form. I don’t want to ramble off on an esoteric vagina monologue, but every naked pussy I see has its own special allure. I love looking at cocks, trust me guys, but it’s not quite the same. Yes, there are all kinds of dicks and each is unique in its own way as well, but there’s an intimate mystery to a woman’s vagina that makes it different. Which is the other part of why I’m so drawn to them.
A big part of the difference (at least for me), is that men are almost expected to brandish their penis. It’s something to be proud of, to thrust out into the world ahead of you, an instrument of power, something you want to show off. Women, on the other hand, are supposed to protect their private parts, shield them from the prying eyes of the outside world, and in many cases be ashamed or embarrassed by their sex parts. This adds that extra primal thrill when a woman puts her most private areas on public display. I can’t imagine being brave enough to do that, so I have a great admiration for the women who do. It turns me on to know that these lovely ladies are voluntarily exposing themselves and allowing me to get an incredibly intimate, up close look at their pussies – regardless of whether they’re doing it for money or pleasure.
Bottom line…I love seeing cunts. This is something I wouldn’t have admitted to a few years back, but I can state this with unequivocal certainty now. I no longer shy away from the idea of being sexually aroused by women. I don’t expect it to ever happen, but I also have come to believe that I’d be open to messing around with another woman. Before you start flooding me with encouragement to go out and start banging every lady I can get my hands on, or adding another chick to the mix with my dear hubby, it’s not something I’m going to pursue any time soon. Maybe one day down the road, but not now.
In the meantime, I’ll just have to keep collecting the pussies that grab me and masturbate my own while enjoying them in all their delectable glory.
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